Aug 10, 2011
Unsettled
I think that describes me these past few days. Certainly the stock market has had an affect on my mood. I am realistic enough to realize that it’s not worth obsessing over but still it is unsettling.
I have had two emails in as many days, one advising the passing of distant friend due to cancer. I will always remember Judy as vibrant and with the big smile she always sported. I helped her get a job a Air Canada which opened the world of travel to her. We even bought a townhouse and lived side by side for a number of years. I remember one great week we spent just the two of us on a beach in Antigua. Rest now my friend. The other email was from friends who gave up special time in their lives to come back from Mexico to be with the widow of a dear friend who suddenly passed. Life can be unsettling.
I am always tired these days. I have many new exercises to do, not always easy. For the past few nights I can’t settle in my bed. I see all the work my garden is begging me to do which I can’t. Even the new tree on the beach site seems to be giving up. It’s withering up and the leaves are falling. Yes we have been to the nursery about it, one says not enough water, another says too much water. Meanwhile the tree is suffering.
Not depressed but unsettled. My desk and business work is calling me and I ignore it. I should be planning our trip south but don’t have the energy. I couldn’t even write a post yesterday.
Yes, unsettled is my state of mind…..this too shall pass.
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Hi Contessa, just read your blog and you sound so down. I had back surgery in May so I think I am feeling about the same as you. Life right now is a burden but think positive thoughts and we will both be on the mend. Take care. Sharon
Well Happy Wednesday!
I wake up every day and decide that today will be a magnificent day( even if I have trouble getting out of bed), even better than yesterday. I usually say this to everybody I meet (a lot of people think I am weird, maybe so, I dress funny too ! ) but it works for me the last 20 years or so. Just think positive (it can be worse!)and be happy, all will be amazing.
When I broke my ankle and ruptured my Achilles tendon three months before we were supposed to hit the road, I had many many days like you’re having. I felt so useless. I was in a wheelchair forever because I couldn’t use crutches without falling. I couldn’t stand up to even help with the dishes or any of the cooking. Jim had to help me take my shower. I hate sleeping on my back but that was the only way I could sleep with a cast on. I thought it would never end. It’s okay to have lousy days. I really like your use of the word unsettled for them. The feeling antsy without really knowing why. So I hope that tomorrow is a much better day for you and that when you wake up the sun is shining for you.
Hi contessa, you’ve had alot going on around you…the stock market (maybe not worth obsessing over but its definitely unsettling)..and the passing of friends…no wonder your having a few unsettled days…like you said this too will pass…hang in there hon it will get better….We all experience days/weeks like that…
gentle hugs to you
Elaine
(Rick tucker and lilly too)
Its hard when you can’t do what you want because of your ****** and can’t see that light at end of tunnel, but a few more weeks of exercise(yuck) you’ll be up to your old (young) self… Hang in there, we’ve all had the same feelings sometime in our life, and always someone worse off then us, soon you’ll be on the Isle in your new site looking out at the Ocean and these days will be a distant memory.. So sorry about losing a friend it happens alot more these days as we get older.. Take Care “S”
HANG IN THERE, KEEP AT YOUR THERAPY AND SOON YOU WILL BE HEADING TO YOUR BELOVED MEXICO.
Thank you all for your kindness, support and most important of all the hugs. I have emailed you all individually but want to thank you again. I guess one has to be allowed the occasional down day in order to appreciate the other days. Hugs back to you all.