Jul 10, 2014

Hard to believe it’s been a year already

Today marks the first anniversary of my Mom’s death.  I think it has hit me harder than I expected, likely because I could not be with her at the end.  I was just 10 days into recovery from hip surgery and was unable to travel.

But where has the year gone?  What have I done or accomplished in these last 365 days?  Am I a better person than I was a year ago?  Have I grown as an individual?  Would Mom be happy with the way I’ve lived my life since she passed?  These are but a few of the many questions I ask myself.

I miss her.  I miss being able to pick up the phone to ask her opinion about something. I find myself talking to her in my mind from time to time.  I become very sad and teary when I think that she is no longer with me in this world.

Tomorrow is another day.  I shall endeavor to continue to try and be a better person day by day.

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12 responses so far

12 Responses to “Hard to believe it’s been a year already”

  1. Rod Williams says:

    I’m sure your Mom would be proud of you!

  2. Amazing how time flies by, but we still have great memories of the past and people we loved.

  3. Teri says:

    I would definitely think that your mom would be proud of you, but I do understand these thoughts that run through our heads.

    You care about others, and look at the friends you have that obviously care about you! And the people you try to help while spending time in Mexico. I’ll bet those bikes are still making a difference for those folks.

    I hope today is a good day. 🙂

  4. Barbara says:

    A year! Oh my it doesn’t seem possible does it? I know just what you’re going through Dear Heart. It’s one of the hardest things we do, losing our mothers. I lost mine eight years ago and I still can’t believe I can’t call her, talk to her, plan a trip to see her. Buy I do still hear her voice, she visits me in dreams, and sometimes when I need her most I’ll find a tiny piece of tin foil (she loved her Hershey Kisses) which we’d find all over her house – and I know she’s around.

    Sending abrazos and warm thoughts to you.

  5. Marcia in PA says:

    You are a good and compassionate person who lives by the Golden Rule. It is painful that we can’t pick up the phone and hear their voice, but keep talking to her, because she is with you always…..

  6. Nancy says:

    My mom died in 1970, she never met my husband or my kids, never knew I graduated from college or the person I have become as an adult… So… I know it is hard to not have your mother in your life but how wonderful it is that you had her as long as you did! Wonderful both for you and for her…

    Sometimes looking from just a bit of a different perspective really helps, I hope you know how fortunate you are.

    The missing her, though… I guess it does become easier but not that much. After all, she’s your mother. But I’m sure without a doubt she’s proud of you.

  7. Connie in DE says:

    Today is the tenth anniversary of my mom’s passing – just realized we have that one date in common. We were blessed with good mothers as role models and we can only hope that we are following in their footsteps and setting good examples. Thinking of you today!!!

  8. longdog2 says:

    A good mother and blessed that you had her for so long. She would be proud of you.

  9. Peter says:

    My Mom died at age 47 when I was 22. A few years back I realized that I could no longer hear her voice. I still can’t. But her love and person will never leave me.

  10. Dolores tanner says:

    Yes, it is a terrible, sad thing to be without your parents… I am glad I had the time I did with my mom, learned her lessons, smiled and laughed and traveled with her, help and love and care for her. We do the best we can with what we have. We have their love and our memories.

  11. Sue says:

    Reading your blog yesterday made me think of my mom and her passing just two years ago. Yes it is very hard. I miss her still. But as all the other comments say, we have our memories. I am thinking of you.

  12. Marty says:

    Eleven years and I still want to pick up the phone…

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